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new shoes.

About a year ago my wife, Desreen, came into our living room with a naughty look on her face and new shoes on her feet.

‘Why are you wearing my trainers?’ I asked.

‘Hmm, they’re not yours, Benji. They’re mine’, she replied.

‘Of course they’re mine. I bought them two weeks ago’, I asserted.

‘Yeah, I know, and I bought mine yesterday’, she said before screwing up her face in a look she always used when she was silently saying I know that I’m in trouble but I don’t care.

I shook my head and chose to say nothing as she chuckled her way to the front door to go out for a run.

The truth is very few of my things were ever only mine. One of the many troubles of not being the tallest chap in the world was that my wife wore my clothes all the time.

‘What do you think of this new coat?’ I’d ask her.

‘I think it’s going to look fabulous with these shoes’, she’d reply holding up a pair of heals and making a note in her diary to borrow my latest purchase at her earliest convenience.

Sadly Desreen didn’t get to wear her trainers many times before she was killed. Strangely enough, however, they still had the ability to make me laugh. One day earlier this year I went for a run around Regent’s Park at lunchtime with a colleague and it wasn’t until I changed into my sports gear that I realised I was wearing one trainer in a size six and the other in an eight. I rolled my eyes at how my wife was still stitching up my wardrobe even after her death.

Just as I had, Desreen had also bought her new runners for the Brighton Half Marathon, which ultimately I ran without her. And now as I embark on my training for that run again in February 2014, as well as the London Marathon two months later, it’s time for some new footwear. Somehow, though, it didn’t feel right not to get Desreen involved. So this morning I created my new shoes through Nike ID and took my inspiration from my wife: they have each of our surnames printed on the tongues; they have a hint of leopard print, which she would have absolutely loved; they’re fluorescent so that (hopefully) traffic can see me coming when I’m running in the dark; and there’s a little yellow in there too because she loved to break the winter with colour.

So, Dessie, you can’t have these ones but they’re still for you x

 

This is syndicated content from Life as a widower

Content reproduced with the kind permission of Benjamin Brooks-Dutton

The views expressed in this blog are solely those of the blogger and do not necessarily represent the views of Dad.info.

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