Well, I'm 2 hrs and 40 mins into this and I am without doubt the grumpiest person in the world .
Spent the morning avoiding the family for fear of losing my temper - its not their fault that im going through this, its mine. I'm sat at Dadtalk towers listening to my ipod, head down working, have replaced nicotine with caffeine - so expect me to be a manic angry person by midday.
Top tip - if you have alphabeat on your ipod, its not a good album to listen to on your first morrning of quitting. Insipid, saccharin pop is not the way to go - opt for something with a bit more grrrrr, im on the arctic monkey's at the moment and am planning to either head towards Hard-fi or some Florence next.
I'm rambling now....great.....suffice to say so far so good on the not smoking front
Been a tricky day today. I have found myself thinking how great a fag would be, often today. It could be so easy to pop round the corner and buy a pack. I keep making little deals with myself, go buy a pack of ten and just smoke one - who would know ? then you have nine for other tricky days.
Good news is that I'm ignoring the little voice telling me to give in and am pushing on - I believe its called willpower and to be honest up until now I hadn't been convinced I had any.
Today I have swapped pear drops and rum and raisin fudge for nicotine - my plan is to get sooooo fat that I can't fit through the door to buy fags.
Still grumpy but have The Pixies on the ipod today and am alternatively rocking my way through the day - so who knows by the time my hormone monster gets back from school I may be mellow enough not to have to run and hide for fear of committing murder. :twisted:
Im dreading monday morning ! the first ciggi is always the best of the day and deciding to quit on my birthday is also a mental idea !
I am now being supplied with gum and NRT's - I was planning on doing this using only will power but i think im going to be realisitc i need some extra help so courtesy of lloyds chemists i now have my first weeks supply !
I also heard that you put on weight when you quit smoking ?? is this true ?? if so, i advise you to stay away from central scotland or you might drive past a crazy mental person on a pushbike looking like he's about to die !!
ok, for those that dont smoke, you prob wont understand, for those that do and have tried giving up ......
How irritable is this !!!!!!! my quit day is today, so far so good but wow, how much would i love to go to the shop and pick up a pack of sticks !! Im determined to do this, but taking it each day at a time, starting today !
will update you tonight to let you know if i managed my first day !
Cheers actd, Its good to know that i have your support, at the moment im my first day in, and feeling very un-easy ! but im sure it will be worth it in the end !
Iv just tried to explain to my mother in law how im feeling - im not quite sure she understood, as she just said "if i let you just rabble on you might feel better after it !!!" im not sure i made sence but i gave it a good go !!
Gooner - I might need to take you up on that chat soon, very anxious and aggitated ! altho the gum does seem to be helping a little ... Im going to go out and try and wash the car ! see if that takes my mind of it !
(i feel like a 3 year old, moaning about something so trivial ! and only my first day in !! )