This is something I just wanted to share about how I am feeling not seeing my children.
Life in Turmoil
My life at the moment is not much of a life,
I guess I should be thankful that I’m still here.
I still praise in wonderment at what life has given me,
But to walk the road alone is filling me with fear.
I wake in the morning and ready for what is ahead,
Monotony is a prevalent part of my day.
Work is really hard sometimes coping through the strain,
Empty thoughts fill my mind like flooding from the rain.
I feel so disturbed by the rage in my dreams,
When I hear my children’s voices whispering amongst hellish screams.
The old fear and doubts remain deep inside and leave me a mess,
Treading this difficult road of temptation and stress.
The recovery will be long and slow, but I am sure it will mend,
How I long to be normal again, when one day this will end.
I have been forced to come to a place that I would rather not be,
To trust in God with faith, but why has he forsaken me.
They say he is the ultimate Supreme Being, forgiver of our sins,
But nothing seems to change for me when evil always wins.
It takes its toll; I weaken from the demoralising pain,
Each blade that pierces through my tortured soul will remain.
They scream out loud to believe in him, that he is faithful and he is true,
It defies any previous experience known to me and you.
All I wanted to do was cry out asking how and why,
Your leave me hear to suffer, whilst you rein your place on high.
There are two powers at work...good and evil and its a constant battle between the two...hence all the trouble in the world.
I know how hard it must be but I hope it has helped to get your feelings out and thanks for sharing Harrylou.
It must have been hard for you to not see your children.
Anyway, it was a nice poem. Thanks for sharing.