I'm at my wits end - My heart is constantly pounding i'm having angry rages - I'm struggling to sleep.
I really hate having this powerless feeling
My boy has been eradicated out of my like with parental alienation
I feel I'm near to being out of control - A part of me wants too cause damage - a part of wants to call it a day with this life
1st thing is don’t do anything rash .. might seem the answer now but will only make things harder re seeing your kid... have you starrted proceedings in court ?
The case is over he is 16 the court won't give out orders now
Is there any way you can contact him - social media, friends? It will be a slow process but your ex can't do anything to prevent it now, so it's between him and yourself.
I Cant imagine how bad this is for you, I'm sorry. baby steps might be the way forward, sometimes the littlest things may bring a positive change, send a letter, find an interest of his and do something to help this grow. its never to late. stay strong