After the birth of their first child, new dad Ross Hunt understood there was a chance of his partner experiencing postnatal depression, but he never thought that he would be the one to suffer.
I read a lot of books and articles about having a baby and tried to absorb as much information as I could. I knew that there was somewhere between a 10-15% chance of my partner getting it, and then if she did, my chances were around 50%. But to me, all that said was to look after my wife and make sure it didn’t happen to her. Never did I think it would skip her and land straight with me.
But that’s what happened. Shortly after having Isabelle I realised something wasn’t right, and it dawned on me that I really didn’t love her. That lack of emotion quickly turned to hate, and everything seemed to snowball from there.
Eventually, things got better, it took around 12 weeks of trying to bond with her in as many different ways as I could. All the changing, playing and going away eventually started to build up, and slowly but surely I started to actually feel love towards my own daughter.
Something else that really helped me was simply talking about it. First I did it as a blog, and after a while, I decided to sit in front of the camera and get it all out. I then put that video online, and that’s what I have here for you today. This is my story of postnatal depression. I hope you can take something away from what I have to say. Maybe in the future, I’ll talk about what things helped me through it, but this was certainly one of them.
So here it is, here is my story.
Ross Hunt is a postman and is married to Rachel and runs his own blog called Isablog.