Hi, i really don’t know what to say. i have no one to talk so that’s why i’m here. i don’t want to be alive anymore. my “partner” talks to me like a lump of poo, i work 40 hours a week and still do it all, i’m up at 5am with the baby. To then get our other kid to school to then go to work at 9 (i’m late everyday) i then get home too cook and clean put the kids to bed to then go bed myself at around 12-1am
im burnt out and do it all but yet my partner is the favourite parent and im treated like dirt by them all in the house. long story short i have no one around to support me or to talk to. Most nights i find myself punching myself in the face a few times cause i don’t have the bollocks to ever end my own life. i really pathetic. ive lost confidence in everything and have not left the house for anything fun in 5 years since my first was born.
sorry ranting and a lot probs don’t make sense i just don’t know what to do
Hello HiddenDad
Nell here, Dad Info editor. Parenting can be a lonely gig. Thank you for sharing how you are feeling. Hope you'll get responses from other Dads here. Step one do talk with someone, your GP is there for you and the Samaritans will listen, you don't have to be suicidal to be in touch. (116123)
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Thanks for being brave enough to start the conversation here. You won't be alone.
All best
Nell
Young children are full on. Is your partner unwell? Could she be suffering from post natal depression? Please make an appointment to see your doctor so you can explain how you are feeling. Can you promise not to end your life until you have spoken to them please?
I would also suggest you speak to the Samaritans, and look at the services Relate offer. Bottom line is you either need to sort out your relationship with your partner, so that it really does become a partnership, or you need to consider whether you would be better off on your own, and in doing so, you'd almost certainly find that you are also in a better place for your children, putting it bluntly, you are no use to them if you aren't alive. You need to start looking after yourself first, and then you can start getting everything else into place, but please see someone, as above, your GP is a very good place to start.