[Solved] am i doing this right???

hello i broke with my partner 16 months ago her decision fine! i still had my little girl we had a petty argument and out the blue she cut access and started the worst 10 weeks i have ever been through! why cos she could? 10 weeks 10 [censored] weeks! from every day too nothing my princess taken away from me because she knew she could. because that is the power 1 person has over another. these actions should be seemed as a crime! 10 weeks nearly destroyed me i know alot of people on here are relating too what i say 1 week 10 weeks 2 years!! we both made our children 50/50 so why the [censored] can our lives be torn appart for days weeks months and years?? mum is no god dam different from dad! and any mum who takes there children away from there dad. dont deserve there [censored] tital why is it us that does all fighting its wrong in so many ways!! its prosecution against no defence there is only 1 winner why???? i crumbeled and i lost my mum 10 years ago but the pain of not seeing talking and doing what comes natrually too all of us on here was the worst feeling i have ever felt. why? this is destroying peoples lifes and what do we get! citezens advice dont deal with this and a family soliciters want up too 150 ph mediation is a waste of time cos they ask can you plese meet the father of your children at an appointment and clearly state u do not have too attend?? well why would i pay you too arrange a meeting she wont turn up too?? what now? the soliciter looks at my pay slips and ses you cant afford our fees! this can be sorted over mediation well sorry no u dont know her i would starve too get your money so you can bleed me for thousands for fighting for someone that is the most special thing i created her its my [censored] righ!!t she has no ideia what she has done !!! this is a crime if she stole my car she would be arrested and charged with the offence? so stealing a child and from the life of her dad is any differant?? this is just an example but this is what i went through not finding a soultion the weeks are passing bye im responsible im not going too kick off make things worse i cant phone cos she changed her num? and still i ask why what right do u have!! work was uninportant i didnt care about anything else other than getting my princess back 9 weeks felt like 9 years why because she can !!and there is not a soulotion desperate work have had too disapline me for my high abcences id taken 30 days off in those 10 weeks more than half unortharised [censored]!! i didnt care though i broke down and explained everything thank god they were tottaly understanding then 10 weeks passed 10 weeks! then she just turned up at my door casualy and said you can see her tomorrow go pick her up from my mums!!! i was so happy. ihave got her back!!. this is what one person did too me. hurt me in the worst possible way and wont never understand 10 weeks what that did too me makes me more angry because alot of you here have gone longer alot longer than that and as a dad i can relate too how it feels. this was 13 months ago and it still hurts me now but this is happening everywhere i wont never forget what she put me through this is why there is no justice for dads like me and u who want too cherish every moment with your son/daughter and cos she says no thats it taken away it is still with me today im on a final written warning at work because they had too follow company policy and not even getting in contact for more than 5 days is classed as gross misconduct so im lucky too still have a job and im sure some of u dads have because of this?but this is what i mean all because of one person having the power too do that too another they must know what they are doing ive read dads that have commiting suicide over custody battels and that is a disgrace! and i cant see that being anydifferent too murder? because if a dad is willing too take the lengthy and financel battle all the way then why the [censored] is this in court that just shows the lenghs a dad will go too to get back what has been so cruley taken from him my ex did this too me and i found out just how little help is there for us dads who are good ones! and have a person who is willing too put us through [censored]?? for what this is why i will never forgive her and i cant stand the sight of her but i have my daughter back and she has me cos 10 weeks isnt alot when your working and doing the day too day things but mums out there who have done this too us good dads put the shoe on the other foot and stop doing this too us becsuse no matter how little time or ant period of time if your a good mum you will be worrying are they ok are they happy are they upset?? this is why you can not have a heart if u do this too us dads because the feeling is mutual i know there are many mums out there who would never do this. but why am i on a website explaing too the hundreds of people what ive been through. because i fell i can. and im sorry guys i am having a dig at mums now because your good mums (most of u) but is being a good dad and being there every day for OUR children is that the only way u can hurt us well yes it is snd its because you understand thats why u do it!! sorry if any good mum raeds this i have respect for u! cos its about the kids at the end of the day and im sure they will hurt too when daddy has gone im glad ive got this out over a year later i needed too say it and im sure many of u will relate too this in one way or another. but keep fighting and keep beliving dads cos we have a name that we are all proud too have i apoligise for the spelling and lack of punctuation once i started typing and could not stop and reading it back i am having a rant about mums especialy so im sorry if ive offened anyone but from personal experiance she nearly destroyed me she is a brilliant mum! and i cant fault her for that but what goes through there heads when they do this too us? because if they know your a good dad its not about the kids then is it its her hitting you where it hurts too make some kind of point? why? this happens you tell me cos u hear the same storyover again and again use the kids as wepon and that is one lethel wepon as i found out i know there is idiots who breed and dont give a [censored] and dont deserve too have kids put when your with your wife/partner at the birth of your child that is something you cherish a bond it was special im a [censored] good dad been there from day 1 so why the [censored] can we just be axed at her say so why the [censored] should we be shot down [censored] on by someone who does it because she can ive prob repeted myself about 10 times sorry i just feel so strongly about this and im glad ive found this website because its helped me getting this out